DUSTY By yellowbella |
The Mesh of Power - Foucault |
Chapt. 14
"She said she didn't teach me to talk that way," I
mumble, feeling embarrassed. I mean, I was just
reprimanded by my mother in front of all of my
friends. She's making me wear this dress and these
flats. I have more guidelines and rules than I can
remember. I feel suffocated, like my mom and dad
are always watching me.
"She said she didn't teach me to talk that way," I
mumble, feeling embarrassed. I mean, I was just
reprimanded by my mother in front of all of my
friends. She's making me wear this dress and these
flats. I have more guidelines and rules than I can
remember. I feel suffocated, like my mom and dad
are always watching me.
Let me be my own person!
My parents still enforce a bedtime, and I'm not
allowed to be on the phone after eight. Mom gives
me crap about how much make-up I wear, or how
short my skirt is. She doesn't let me eat sugar or
drink soda. Anytime I ask to spend time with Alice,
they complain about me never being home. And
now I can't speak freely without being censored.
Their restraints are too tight, and I'm
claustrophobic. I can feel myself protesting against
their hold. It's a pressure in my chest and tension in
my jaw. It's the anger that runs cold through my
veins every time I'm told what to do, or left feeling
untrusted. It's in the pity in Carlisle and Esme's
eyes, and in every curse word Alice and Edward are
allowed to say.
It makes me want to scream.
But I don't.
I have a part to play.
chapt 17
What would her reaction be if I said no instead of
doing as she asked? Their hold on me is already so
constricting, I don't even want to think about how
tight it would get if I started acting out.
"Bella, wash your face or you're not going
anywhere." Mom drops her purse and keys on the
coffee table and sits down, showing me how serious
she is.
I feel claustrophobic. Their rules and expectations
are strangling me. She wants me to remain a little
girl forever, but here I am, fifteen ready to be
eighteen. Ready to get out of here.
It's why I need the Cullens so badly. I need the
margin they offer, even if it's only for the weekend.
They supply me with room to breathe, where my
parents are watching my every move. Alice and
Edward might make some wrong decisions, but at
least they're allowed to make their own mistakes. I
still get crap about listening to music with curse
words in the lyrics. My mother gives me
unfavorable
looks if I wear something she doesn't approve of.
My dad flashes his stupid badge every time he
drops
me off at school. I'm not allowed in the car with
Edward, I'm not allowed to be on the phone after
eight, and I'm apparently not allowed to wear
eyeshadow.
to remain a secret.
No boys until I'm seventeen. That's the house rule.
My dad thinks boys are a distraction, and my mom
believes they're only after one thing. They can't
believe that Carlisle and Esme allow Alice to be in
such a serious relationship. My mom appreciates my
friendship with Garrett. But no, no boyfriends. Not
even Garrett. Even though I'm sure he's who she
would choose for me. Who knows, if I came to them
with Garrett, they might
even make an exception
to
this seventeen rule.
But if my mom and dad
were to learn about me
and
Edward, everything would be taken away. My
weekends and school vacations out of this house
would be gone, and I'd be stuck here, under their
microscope.
And maybe that would
be okay if they'd let me
keep
Edward, but they
wouldn't. I don't know
what my
dad would do. I don't really know if Edward would
get in any kind of trouble or not, but I wouldn't be
surprised if they made me switch schools. My phone
would be gone, and the little independence I do
have. I'd never be allowed back over to Alice's. I
don't even know if they'd let me be her friend.
All of that is not something I can risk. Not
yet.
Not
at fifteen.
So I wash my face.
chapt 23
Pete and Ben start to give me a hard time. But they
don't know, and neither does Alice, really. No one
has parents like mine. They're constantly looking
for
for
change in me … any little imperfection will set them
off, and all of this will be taken away.
Mom and Esme watch us from the bar. Esme is all
smiles, happy to see us happy, but Mom's face is a
little different. Her eyes are looking a little harder …
deeper. If I dance the wrong way she might say
something. Or maybe she can tell that Alice has
been drinking. I don't know, but I hate being under
her microscope.
As I scope my surroundings, I notice she isn't the
only one looking. Edward, who has his hands in his
pockets and his Ray Bans on his face, even though
it's after twilight, is looking in my direction, too. So
is Garrett. I'm on this dance floor with my girl, but I
feel like their stares are pulling me in three
different
different
uncorrupted daughter; a told secret; more than
friends.
All at once, at a place like this, it's almost too much
to handle.
Esme puts her arms around me, hugging me tight.
"Oh, let her stay, Renee. This party is almost over
anyway."
he's checking me for a crack … an imperfection, a
sign that he can't trust me. I have many reasons
they shouldn't trust me, but never have I given him
one. He's leery, though. Maybe he can't help it. I'm
his daughter, but it's his job to seek untruth in
people.
I resent him for it, even though I shouldn't. Even
though I am a liar; I detest him for knowing what
to
look for—for making my life harder than I've
already
made it myself.
I can hardly contain my smile, but I do. I don't
want
want
to look too relieved in their decision to let me stay.
My dad might get suspicious. He might wonder why
I care so much. He might find the crack.
The Gaze of Surveillance |
chapt 28
"How late did you girls stay
up? " Mom asks. She's
helping us fold up our fort,
one blanket at a time.
Mom's pitch is too high. Her
eyes are too weary.
that I need to know about? Why did you sleep until
three in the afternoon?
chapt 37
Until Dad pulls the car into the driveway and asks,
"What the hell was that, Isabella?"
"What the hell was that, Isabella?"
I hear him clearly.
Settling back into my role is seamless, but not
facile. With years of practice and the help of my
body, I sit up straight, I smile, and I force my voice
out. My eyes light up, my cheeks redden, my
no
longer the girl with the underworking heart, but the
Bliss.
I play stupid. "What?"
Charlie meets my gaze through the rear-view
mirror.
"Edward," he says.
I roll my backed-up-with-tears eyes and smirk.
"Dad, nothing. It's just Edward."
"We don't like it," Mom chimes in, with so much
implication behind her tone.
With my hand on the door handle and my stare on
the back of my mother's head, I say with a little
____________________________________
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Quotes from the Mesh of Power - Michel
Foucault
In their work, they still continue to regard the
signified of power, the central point, that in which
power consists, as prohibition, law, the act of
saying
saying
no, and above all, the figure or expression: “You
must not.” Power is essentially those who say, “You
must not.”
What was the problem that always reappeared, that
was perpetually re-elaborated? The problem of
prohibition, essentially the prohibition of incest.
And,
And,
from this matrix, from this kernel that would be the
prohibition of incest, one attempted to understand
the general functioning of the system
...with the work of Clastres4, for example, a whole
new conceptualization of power as technology,...
In other words, the West never had another system of representation, expression
or analysis of power aside from that of rights.....
elementary, fundamental, etc. ideas which are those of law, rule, sovereign,
commission, etc.
I believe that we must now free ourselves from this juridical
I believe that we must now free ourselves from this juridical
conception of power – this conception of power derived from the law and
sovereign, from the rule and prohibition – if we wish to proceed towards
an
analysis of the real functioning of power, rather than its mere
representation
I will attempt, with regard to sexuality, not to
conceive of power from the juridical point of view,
but from the technological...
Consequently, economic processes, diverse
mechanisms, which in a certain way remained
outside control, required the establishment of a
continuous, minute power, in a certain atomizing
fashion; from a lacunal, global power to a
continuous, atomic, and individualizing power: that
everyone, each individual in and of himself, in his
body, in his movements, could be controlled, in the
place of total and mass controls.
...this second necessity: finding a power mechanism
such that, at the same time that it controlled things
and persons right down to the most minute detail,
it
it
would neither be expensive nor essentially
predatory
predatory
on society, that it would, on the contrary, be
exercised through the economic processes
themselves...(and this became the family).
On the one hand, there was this technology that I
will call “discipline.” Discipline is basically the
mechanism of power by which we come to exert
control in the social body right down to the finest
elements, by which we succeed in grabbing hold of
the social atoms themselves, which is to say
individuals. Techniques for the individualization of
power. How to monitor [surveiller] someone, how to
control his conduct, his behavior, his aptitudes, how
to intensify his performance, multiply his capacities,
how to put him in a place where he will be most
useful: this is what I mean by discipline.
what I will name the individualizing technology of
power, a technology that basically targets
individuals right down to their bodies, their
behaviors; it is grosso modo a kind of political
anatomy, an anatomo-politics, an anatomy that
targets individuals to the point of anatomizing them.
...but, rather, power must be exercised over
individuals insofar as they constitute a kind of
biological entity that must be taken into
consideration if we actually want to use this
population as a machine for producing, for
producing
producing
wealth and goods, for producing other individuals...
...sex is situated very precisely at the point of
articulation between the individual disciplines of the
body and the regulations of population. Sex is that
through which one can assure the surveillance of
individuals, and we understand why in the 18th
century, and precisely in secondary schools,
adolescent sexuality became a medical problem, a
moral problem, nearly a political problem of the
highest importance, because, through – and under
the pretext of – this control of sexuality, one could
monitor high schoolers, adolescents, over the
course
course
of their lives, at each instant, even during their
sleep
Sex is the lever between anatomo-politics and bio-
politics; it is at the juncture of disciplines and
regulations, and it is in this function that it became,
at the end of the 19th century, a political
component of the utmost importance for making
society into a machine of production.
...whereas, using the concept of the forbidden –
which, in a certain sense, is more or less isomorphic
to every society – we couldn’t do a history of
sexuality.
...we live in a society which is in the process of no
longer being a juridical society. Juridical society was
the monarchical society. From the 19th century
onward, in societies which appear as societies of
rights, with parliaments, legislatures, codes, courts,
an entirely different mechanism of power was
beginning to seep in, which did not follow juridical
forms and which did not have the law as its
fundamental principle, but instead had the principle
of the norm, but instead, medicine, social controls,
psychiatry, psychology. We are therefore in a
disciplinary world.
This is because we live in a society where crime is
no longer simply and essentially a transgression of
the law, but rather a deviation in relation to a norm.
I believe that the way in which the sexuality of
children was made into a fundamental problem for
the bourgeois family during the 19th century
provoked and made possible a great number of
controls over the family, over parents, over
children,
children,
and created at the same time a whole series of new
pleasures: the pleasure of parents in monitoring
children, the pleasure of children in playing with
their own sexuality, against their parents and with
their parents, an entirely new economy of pleasure
around the body of the child. We needn’t
necessarily
necessarily
say that parents, out of some sort of masochism,
self-identify with the law…
___________________________________
DUSTY has fictionalized the essential work of
Foucault on this subject, allowing us to more deeply
understand continental philosophy upon which the
thought of the western world rests on today. Bella's
dilemma is that she is tightly caught in a very fine
mesh of the disciplinary judicial Discourse of
power,
while
Alice
power,
while
Alice
and Edward are caught in a very loose mesh of
power based on norms. Bella understands their
position but they
position but they
cannot understand how tightly she is trapped by
the
the
law of 18 as legal enfranchisement.
When the secret is exposed Alice and Edward
discuss how Bella/Bliss has lied to them both and
their judgement is based on morality and trust
issues. They are completely unaware of the
Foucauldian Grid of
power/knowledge/capital/normality while Bliss is
acutely aware of them. Bliss is forced to "split" to
experience a double self. She feels her true self is
the self she experiences with Edward, but Dusty
has her in his own mesh of power which she is
unaware of, simply replicating the one from her
family.
Her assumed highly controlled alternative self,
Isabella Bliss, is a LIE. She must keep the secret,
the LIE, to experience what she believes is her
TRUE
TRUE
self, so the lies she must tell to protect "her true
self" must negate the LIE of her "pretend" self,
which is a LIE,
involving her
self" must negate the LIE of her "pretend" self,
which is a LIE,
involving her
in a double negation to establish her own truth,
which threatens
which threatens
to break her and melt her down.
To quote Jean Baudrillard on this:"Children
play a double game. They are in fact children,
but they do not BELIEVE they are children
and
so they play a double-game," which is what
we see Bella doing in DUSTY.
To quote Jean Baudrillard on this:"Children
play a double game. They are in fact children,
but they do not BELIEVE they are children
and
so they play a double-game," which is what
we see Bella doing in DUSTY.
Edward is in a different situation. Since the secret is
forbidden in a more surface awareness of incest, he
experiences guilt, because the constraints are his
own based primarily in the beginning on her tender
age and the incest taboo. He begins to wish for an
open relationship with
Bella as she is now old enough that he feels it will
be perceived as normal.
age and the incest taboo. He begins to wish for an
open relationship with
Bella as she is now old enough that he feels it will
be perceived as normal.
The two parental strategies are diametrically
opposed and they mirror the reality of this in our
present culture. Extreme control leads to
transgression and seduction and no or little control
leads to trying to find limits where there are none
and
leads to trying to find limits where there are none
and
guilt. But the transgressor has the advantage of
awareness and consciousness of existential choice,
but Edward, who has been seduced by "his little
sister" can only experience guilt and secrecy which
he tries to
he tries to
alleviate with cocaine.
This is a complex fanfiction with exceptionally
sophisticated themes, and shocking implications
that are arousing unconscious fantasies among
readers who are responding with rage, unconscious
rage. Many prefer the innocuous fanfics that follow
the easy template of plot turns and superficial
understanding that are easy to grasp and require
no serious emotional probing of self.
The neo-liberalism of Esme and Carlisle leaves this
loosely constructed mesh which does not prepare
their children for the constraints they will meet,
while Charlie and Renee bind their daughter and
doom her to a restricted, disciplined future life.
And this may be the reason for the polarizing
response to this story. The psychological incest is
revealed and concealed by the fact that Edward and
Bella are not blood relatives, but is that really the
issue in incest taboo. A genealogy of the incest
taboo reveals that it arose when woman were
considered as objects to be exchanged for affiliation
with another group, so the original incest taboo was
between brother and sister NOT father/mother and
children. And this has morphed into criminal
abnormal behavior when no exchange is the
issue anymore. I am sure the parental modes of
abnormal behavior when no exchange is the
issue anymore. I am sure the parental modes of
parenting are arousing deeply disturbing feelings.
This is good. This is what reading is supposed to do
Are you shitting me? I'm not being a smart mouth and this isn't sarcasm. I actually want to know if you are in fact shitting me? I mean I get it, your first post was popular, a bit hard to follow what with your use of big words and flamboyantly showing off your intelligence to the world about a fic. This is a fanfic about two characters that have made a fandom and have made friendships. At this point you really are beating a dead horse and just making yourself look ridiculous. I can spout big words and analyze just about anything in this fandom. I can compare it to all the greats out there and I can also write up a review (I've done reviews on a blog MANY times over) and I can do it all without sounding arrogant and ridiculous. It is possible to do that. It's also possible to make a person want to read and not want to read with a single review of a fic. Keep it simple. Don't act like this fic is above it all, that this one fic in a fandom with THOUSANDS of other fics is the best and that NONE can surpass it, because that just makes you look ignorant.
ReplyDeleteWas this fic good? No clue, don't care to find out. With all the hate surrounding it, I'm glad I don't know. BUT as a reader in this fandom what I see here is plain and simply stupid. It makes you look obsessed with the writers. i get it. I LOVE some of the writers in this fandom but I'm not about to boil a bunny to make my love known (which is pretty much what you've done here)
Write a blog post once, praise it, tell the reader YOU MUST READ THIS! Great! You've done that. Write a second post. Okay, it's getting a little creepy in here, gonna go check the bushes. Do it a third time though? NOW you make me wanna know if you have my picture hung up just above your screen. Maybe you have tiny hearts around me face? Maybe our names are written in the back with tiny little xoxo's?
You want to draw people into this fic, by all means do, I've heard great things just as I have heard bad things. You're going about this all wrong though. Right now, and with blogs in the past, you are making the reader feel below the fic, you are making them feel like it;s not their cup of tea with your blog and your deductions. Tell us about the meat and potatoes of this fic, tell us the great and tell us the bad. What exactly is your purpose here? Is there some Nobel Peace prize in this fandom I don't know about? Is that why you are writing this up week after week? I mean you are literally running this into the ground, you must realize that?
Tell the reader what we want to know and leave all your self importance BS out of it.
Legit Lady Cave
You don't even want to know how insane this woman is. I'm not even joking. She goes on blogs and defends Kristen Stewart cheating using this same MO. She tries to show us all just how intelligent she is and ends up just embarrassing herself. If you have a different opinion, she writes page long essays trying to convince people that a woman cheating with a married man is the right thing. lol. Seriously insane! I'm truly scared for the authors of Dusty. I didn't like the fic at all, but they both seem like good people. I hope they don't fall into this woman's trap. She really does need help.
Deletefor someone who doesn't care, you went on for a long time, LLC.
ReplyDeleteSo... Someone wrote a review for a review about a fic they've never read, but did manage to comment on the "hate" around it by spreading more of it here, to tell you not to review so much?
ReplyDeleteWell, if that's not the most idiotic thing I've ever heard.
(Yes, yes, yes... I've heard all about my ego and about how much I love myself.)
And the other one says you're a stalker while stalking your blog, which is again, about a fic they didn't like.
Mind blowing. No wonder why they're threatened by your intelligence. Lol.
Anyway, another wonderful review! You manage to spark up the best discussions in the group, you know. Even if some of us have to pull up the wiki page so we know who you're talking about.
You said you're posting the review in pieces and I really can't wait to read every single one of them. :) Thank you so much for your support and the time you take to write them.